Thursday, January 20, 2011

Jan 20th - Court Session Number 6

As I wrote out the title of this post... I am seriously in shock.. you see this is SO not how I thought this would be.. I never dreamed we'd be STUCK in a foreign land FIGHTING for daughters who our God spoke and  told us repeatedly to come and get... hummm...
sometimes... things DON'T go the way you see them in your mind (and/or heart)... and things happen lots of times that leave all of us wondering if we missed God altogether...     

Let me just stop right there and go back to the beginning of this LONG exhausting day.. and let me just tell you it was another EXHAUSTING one... 

We went to the babyhouse this morning for what we thought was our last visit to F and G this trip...  It was sad.. but, they don't really understand what's happening... (they are 3 years old)...    We told them through the translator that we wouldn't be back for a while.... but, when we came back we'd be picking them up and we'd go home forever.. they said DA (yes)  and smiled and ran on to play with another toy... ;) 
It's bittersweet that they don't really understand..
One of the caregivers took some time today and came into the bonding room and 'enlightened' us on their personalities...  It was funny.. cause when she left.. Symbat said... NO DUH woman!   We have spent a lot of time with F and G.. and we see their personalities SHINING through!!  :)   it was funny...

We left the babyhouse and they dropped us home for a couple hours.. we made a quick lunch... prayed... read the word a little.. and Phil got out his MP3 and started listening to music...    We got more and more and more nervous...  I prayed all the peace scriptures I knew... we talked and laughed and cried.. and hugged.. and tried NOT to stress... and trust God..
Next thing I know.... Phil is crying and says... Listen to this...    He ran across the following song on his MP3: (notice the verses at the first...  yeah..  it was just what we needed to read!)


so we are then feeling really good.. The Lord has reminded us yet again that He has this!!!   :) 

The driver and translator then arrive to pick us up @ 2 pm. We are going to Svetlana’s office before court to go over the new documents and prepare. It is obvious after about 10 minutes of arriving in her office that she is VERY concerned about today and the judge. She tells us that she took the new updated forms to the judge yesterday and that the judge had LOTS of questions. She (Svetlana) told us to be prepared again to answer things are stupid as, “what are we going to feed the twins? They most likely won’t like America food, etc”… That gives you an idea of the insanity… She said that the judge had looked at all our pictures in the dossier and was concerned that there are no neighbors anywhere close to our house. She said she attempted to tell her that this is the ‘country’ and we live in the ‘country’. Svetlana said she asked her ridiculous questions and for us to be prepared because she would ask us LOTS of things in court again today.


In the previous sessions Svetlana has been a very calming force for Phil and I.. She’s very confident, yet kind and VERY easy to talk to.. and just puts you at ease. Well, after knowing her for 3 months… and 5 previous court sessions.. it was obvious that she was VERY concerned about today.

As we sat in her office I could just feel the enemy getting a grip on my mind… our faces were dropping and Phil and I were both getting so stressed (as you could imagine!)…

I begin quoting scriptures (in my head) and praying and declaring victory, peace, grace and the Lord’s will… and the Lord reminded me of the scripture that he gave me prior to the very first court date… WAY back on Dec. 14th… (at that time.. I remembered thinking… oh Lord.. what does this mean… but, I knew)… The scripture says:
They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD. Jeremiah 1:19
I began quoting that in my head over and over and over… and off we went to pick up the ladies and go to the courtroom.

We arrive and find out that the judge is still in session.. and we aren’t called until 3:45. We waited for over 45 minutes… our insides were rolling… I have NEVER in my life felt such a mixture of emotions. I finally couldn’t sit any longer and paced and cried out to God and DECLARED this town, people, country for HIS glory.

I reminded him of the times he’s shown me over and over and over again that we are supposed to be in Kaz. At this EXACT time… and I begged him to PLEASE let this finally be about the twins… You see.. I have selfish moments… I begged him… I cried out… I said, God enough is enough… I am THRILLED that you have big plans for all this… but, when is it going to be about the girls… They need us… we need out of here… God PLEASE!!! … but, as quickly as I cried that in my heart… I apologized to the Lord… I DO NOT want to be selfish… I want this to bring HIM the Glory… (more about this in a minute)

At one point I look at Phil and he’s FURIOUS.. I lean into him and tell him to relax… and that this very moment was going to help someone – somehow – sometime.. There would be someone who is reading our blog.. or reading this chapter in the book (the book I’m going to write).. and they are going to be facing a situation that seems impossible. A situation where they are facing a den of lions… Phil said.. NO a den of snakes! :) and our story of God bring victory through this will help them. They will read our story and KNOW that God still does what he says. He does still rescue, save and set free…. Phil just grinned at me.. and said.. I love you! ;)

So… at 3:45… we go in the courtroom…

Svetlana presents the new documents.. she looks them over and the ?’s begin… Over and over and over…

She doesn’t  understand the forms… we all explain… she finally moves on to the Dr’s.. there are 4 Dr’s here as witnesses.. they completely redid the entire medical exam and made ALL new documents for her. EVERYONE is jumping through hurdles. The Dr’s all testify to the DYNAMIC changes in the twins since the first of Nov… (BINGO..their Mama and Papa met them for the first time on Nov. 4th) HELLO!!!

The Dr’s say that EVERYONE can see a huge change in them since Nov.. and that they all feel it would be best for the twins to continue in our care.. etc. etc..

They were 100 % supportive.. and honestly I was surprised at what all they said about us. We had NEVER seen any of these Dr’s before… CRAZY!!!

The judge DRILLS the Dr’s about ?’s.. and gets on to them for the previous commission and the forms not being filled out and signed correctly… I tell you this judge has some power issues…

The Dr’s are then dismissed…

She then lights back into ME… :) Oh joyous day! The drilling continues.. I have NEVER in my life experienced anything quite like her.. it’s INSANE the way she asks the ?’s.. then reasks.. and it’s like she’s playing a MEAN mind-game… I have NO idea if I need to change my answers a little… or if she’s liking what she hears and seeing if I’m going to answer consistently for the 34th time.. ;)

I am fairly quick on my feet and think quickly.. and she throws me for loops.. I am not kidding. It like the most tiring thing I’ve ever EVER endured. She’ll tell me to expand on one response (that my answers aren’t elaborate enough… then the next one.. she’ll say JUST answer the ?!) (which is what I was doing.. oh my!)

She then looks through the forms for the millionth time and asks us TONS of ?’s about them… and then discovers an error in the translation. The lady who translated failed to translate the signature line on one of the new forms… It’s right there PLAIN AS DAY on the English (original – notarized and apostilled version).. but, the translator failed to put the signature line…. She sees it.. and that’s the end..

Svetlana explains that it’s a simple error.. she demands that it be fixed and she WILL NOT give a verdict today..  (we were in court for an hour and a half)

SERIOUSLY.. I am in shock… my chin (I know) hits the floor… (at this point I’m worried Phil’s going to snap… cause he’s CLOSE!)… If you could hear her ?ing… you’d be amazed at our ability to continue to answer and smile and the fact that we’ve not knocked her out of her chair backwards… (sorry… but, I’d like to… urg!)..

However… when she started saying all that… The scripture came to me that we are supposed to Pray for our enemies and those who despitefully use us (that’s my version of that scripture)… so, I started praying for the judge and asking God to bless her… The word says to pray blessings on our enemies… I want her to find the Lord… I want her to realize that Jesus Loves her so much… I prayed for her and fought back the tears as I looked her in the eye… Honestly.. it was very easy… My heart breaks that she doesn’t’ know Jesus… purely breaks for her…

Ok… so she then says tomorrow at 3:30.. and the DOE lady stands up and goes OFF on her… She says there is NO way she can be in court tomorrow… she has personal plans. She then says… just give your verdict NOW… why are you putting us all through all this? The judge says she will not give a verdict until that form is correct… and we can either have court tomorrow @ 3:30 or on the 25th @ 11:00 am… there is a roar in the room. The DOE lady continues to argue with her… and tells her it’s not fair to us, etc..

The judge then looks at her and says.. you pick.. it’s either tomorrow or the 25th… The DOE lady said ok to tomorrow.. JUST FOR US!

The judge says she will give her verdict tomorrow… and it will be a short session… Can this really be true?

Everyone (including Svetlana) feels good about tomorrow and feel she’s going to give a positive verdict…

As we were walking out of that courtroom…. I can’t even tell you the physical struggle I had within myself…. Honestly I was MAD…. WHY GOD I cried… Why can’t you just stop this… PLEASE … do you care??

I just walked down the hall away from everyone… I fought back the tears… I thought of having to post NO VERDICT again…. I thought of Bay and Brook.. My mom… our family.. all waiting… our plane tickets.. yet again (have to be changed)… I thought of it all.. and I said… Ok God.. I’m serious… I am tired.. and you said in the word.. that you wouldn’t put more on us than we could bare… and well, I feel really close to that point.. and then I said… I KNOW you are doing something here… but, I’d really like to see a little something… I know we’re planting seeds.. but, somehow, someway.. PLEASE show us that we’re doing something for you…

And then I walked out with Phil… where the group of ladies were standing BASHING The judge… I quickly thanked the DOE and gave her a HUGE tearful hug and thanked her for agreeing to tomorrow and that I was so sorry… and that I knew she did it just for us.. and we were so so so sorry, yet thankful! She was all smiles and so kind.. but, SO mad at the same time at the judge.

They are bashing her.. talking about how they’ve NEVER seen any adoption like this EVER in all their years.. and that this is the most ridiculous fight they’ve ever seen or dealt with… They kept apologizing to us and we smiled through the pain and said it was ok… we are ok! I felt led at this point to say that we realized one positive thing out of 7 court sessions.. they quickly wanted to know what.. and I told them that if not for so many court session we would not have gotten to know them so well… and thanks to that judge we had WONDERFUL life-long new friends in Pavlodar, Kazakhstan!! They were ALL smiles and agreed… and LOVED that I said it… I told them that we had LOTS of great friends to visit every time we came back to visit Kazakhstan.

They laughed and said.. wow.. you will really come back here after all you’ve been through? We said yes.. OF COURSE!!!! And I quickly felt led to share with the DOE and director of children’s services that we were making plans to come back with a group of family and friends and do something BIG for the BH here… they were IN shock..and asked what we meant… We told them a HUGE outside toy.. or something just as HUGE for the kids there… They were in shock.. even Svetlana said… are you guys really still going to do that… with all you’ve been through here? They were in shock… we quickly said yes.. and in my head.. the Lord softly spoke…” SEE… I am working… you just showed them ME!”

Let me tell you that I was about to BAWL at this point… the driver then arrived and we all get in the van (jammed in there).. and they ladies are all talking 150 miles per hour in Russian.. and Symbat looks over and says.. do you know what they are saying? They are all amazed and talking about you guys and the fact that you are going/ planning on doing something HUGE for this city/country after the way you’ve been treated… They are in shock.. and are saying what good people you are! It was INCREDIBLE!!!!

Now.. let me just share a little more.. you see I didn’t want to keep trusting God.. I REALLY wanted to kick and scream and throw a HUGE fit…. Cause to me.. I’d put in the time.. it has been a LONG HARD road… we are tired, broke and completely exhausted… but, I wouldn’t change ONE single thing of this journey….

You see.. I said long ago to the Lord.. back when the ‘waiting’ was killing me.. back when there was NO news from our agency… back when others were traveling and bringing their babies home… back when my heart was breaking because my child(ren) were in an orphanage and I was STUCK in Oklahoma doing fundraiser after fundraiser after fundraiser…. I told the Lord in one of my fits that I wanted HIM to get all the Glory.. and that I wanted this very journey to GLORIFY him in Magnificent ways…

… I am so proud to be able to say that I am glad the judge didn’t give her verdict today… or last week.. or last year (ha ha 2010!)…. Because one person’s life is worth some pain… one person’s soul is worth some sacrifice…

Yes.. my flesh wants it to end.. and I miss Bay and Brook so much I think I feel physical pain.. and I DREAM of the day that I can sign Faith and Grace out of that DREADFUL orphanage forever…. However, I do not want to miss what our Lord is doing… because HIS plans are incredible!

I am so thankful for all our your amazing messages… you are sending such sweet comments and things.. and saying that our faith is admirable… PLEASE don’t admire it… PLEASE be motivated to know God deeper…. PLEASE stop what you are doing right now… and cling to him a little more..

He so desires to be EVERYTHING to us.. and yet we put him last most times in our lives… I’ve seen on FB that most of America seems to be having a snow day… It looks like most everyone I know is home today.. (unexpectedly)… You know what.. that’s NOT the case..

God orchestrated YOU being exactly where you are at this EXACT moment reading my blog about HIS greatness.. He knew you’d read the challenge I issued to you… TO CLING TO HIM… to experience him in a way you have never before…

Yes.. I know it’s scary to COMPLETELY sell out to him… and YES, I know that some people will think you are a fool… (Believe me I know.. I get the comments and I get the negativity – and close family and friends just don’t comment)…. But, you know what…

There really is NOTHING else to live for…. I mean really… He gave IT ALL for us.. and he’s the real reason we are all even alive… He designed us to worship HIM.. he molded us in HIS image!

Find some time today – TAKE some time today and seek him… Read the word.. INGEST more of him! He’s right there waiting on you.. gently calling YOUR name…

Join me today as we celebrate him.. and HIS amazing GREATNESS!

Oh.. and court is tomorrow @ 3:30… and she’s gonna say YES!!!  … and everyone is GOING to know exactly what our Lord did for us!!!!

… and I DELCARE the Lord’s Glory here in Pavlodar, Kazakhstan!!!



28 comments:

Friends and Family said...

Oh guys.... My heart is so heavy. I keep telling you how I wish I could be there to give you huge hugs. As awful as this judge is, I feel deeeeeeep in my heart that it WILL work out and there is NO WAY she could deny the adoption. Like you said, power issues. Maybe she just needs that feeling and will relent when she feels like she has built herself up enough. It isn't right but there are so many people like her all over the world. But you have a MUCH higher power and she CANNOT beat that. All my love guys!!! HUGS!!!! Suz

Andrea said...

Your faith is so inspiring and you are SUCH good people. I KNOW tomorrow will bring a positive verdict. I just can't wait to see the day that you get to bust those angels out of the baby house once and for all. It is all worth it. You know that. I admire you so much. This WILL work out tomorrow. It has to. xo Andrea and Anelya

Friends and Family said...

Can't wait to fill in the answered prayer spot in my journal tomorrow with your good news. I think I'll fill it in for today too, since God listend to your cry and showed you a glimpse of his plan :)
Becky

Friends and Family said...

I LOVE that you still want to go back and help. That not only leaves an impression on the ladies in Kaz, but it changes your whole outlook on your trip(s) over there. You could dread every photo and memory of Kaz, but you arn't. You are still thinking positively about that city and those people. What a blessing! (Oh, and keep a spot open for me on your return trip! I'm IN!)
Kathy B

Friends and Family said...

Your journey has been awesome in the things God is working...so inspiring... . The strength and endurance, support, connections, and the love that God has provided for you. I know that God has something bigger than we could ever imagine in store. I am 100% on board for whatever I can do to help for the BH for your return mission. Gods love and light is shining through you both so strong :)
-Angela H :) PAG

Friends and Family said...

You are truly "letting your light so shine before men that they might see your good works and glorify your father which is in heaven". We continue to lift you in prayer! 7....God's number....who would dream you would get to that many court dates but God is in control.
This is no time for fear
This is a time for faith and determination
Don't lose the vision here
Carried away by emotion
Hold on to all that you hide in your heart
There is one thing that has always been true
It holds the world together

God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
There is no power above or beside Him, we know
God is in control, oh God is in control

History marches on
There is a bottom line drawn across the ages
Culture can make its plan
Oh, but the line never changes
No matter how the deception may fly
There is one thing that has always been true
It will be true forever

He has never let you down
Why start to worry now?
He is still the Lord of all we see
And He is still the loving Father
Watching over you and me

watching over you...watching over me..
watching over every things..
watching over you..watching over me..
every little sparrow..every little things...

Love you guys! Shari

Friends and Family said...

"But you will not even need to fight. Take your positions, then stand still and watch the Lord's victory. He is with you, O people of Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid or discouraged. Go out there tomorrow, for the LORD is with you."
- 2 Chronicles 20:17
_Kari Letterneau and family

qmiller said...

Ps 126:5
5 Those who sow with tears
will reap with songs of joy.
6 Those who go out weeping,
carrying seed to sow,
will return with songs of joy,
carrying sheaves with them

Looking forward to hearing the rejoicing tomorrow from the other side of the world! Quaintance

Lori Printy said...

Lanette, I'm in tears reading this. I'm carrying some big worry, big decisions to make and as I read your words I know I need to go back to God: let him lead, listen and obey. You have no idea what you just did for me, how He just spoke though you but from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU.

You're in my continued prayers.

Friends and Family said...

Thank you Lanetta. Thank you. I seriously have no idea how you are able to maintain such clarity in the middle of all of the pain. I SO wish I had the ability to be like you WHILE things are happening instead of in retrospect. I'm working on it. Now I have you as a model to work from. Thank you. And I'll pray CONSTANTLY for you. SHE WILL SAY YES.

Jennifer Robinson

Friends and Family said...

Oh Lanetta & Phil,

What a blessing you have been to all of us but I know you have been a huge blessing to these woman. They really have seen Jesus in you and they have no idea. Your faith is not just a testimony to those who know and love you but to these woman and they will someday share your story with others and it will also show Jesus to someone else there. The impact of what you have been doing will be a blessing to others for generations to come. Robert & I feel how exhausted you are and wish there was something we could do. Even though we do not comment every day just know we're checking in on you everyday and we're praying every morning, every night, and sometimes in between. Which reminds me....Zachariah told us this morning that he got up at 2:30am this monring to go to the bathroom and when he stopped to look at the clock and realized what time it was he stopped and prayed over you and your court session. See, you are even making an impact in the life of an 8 yr old boy in the middle of the night. Trusting God to bless each of you. Claiming VICTORY in all of this! You will be victorious.

Psalm 20
May the Lord answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob pretect you. May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings. May he give you the desire of your heart and make your plan succeed. We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the Lord grant you all your requests. Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed; he answered him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we will rise up and stand firm. O' Lord, save the King! Answer us when we call.

This is what I clinged to for years when we were going through infertility and losing our babies to Heaven. I kept declaring that we would be victorious and that we would shout for joy with our banners held high and we did the day Nicholas & Zachariah were born. We will do the same very soon when Faith & Grace are officially yours!

Much Love from Tulsa,
Cherilyn

Friends and Family said...

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! All four of us could not wait to see what happened. We normally read before bed but with all of us at home we had to read early.

Zachariah got his Bible and was ready to look up scripture if needed, what a blessing!
As we read and listened to the Newsboys song I explained to the boys why this song hits right at home. Great, great stuff, thank you and thank God!

Just a side note, as I was working up at our church yesterday I was thinking about you guys and satan told me to just give up and to stop praying for the six of you and just give up, again and again. We are being hit at home, Oklahoma, and yet I/We will NOT give up! We all feel strong about this physically, emotionally and most importantly, SPIRITUALLY! This will end in HIS glory and will forever glorify Him! I DID NOT stop praying and will NOT stop glorifiying Him! This will only make ALL of us stronger in HIM and when we see you six only believe more in His power and grace.

I am high on HIM as I type this. Thank You for typing what you felt on this last blog. You touched all four of us one way or another. You had me in tears as I read this numeruous times and I explained to the boys that those were not tears of sadness but tears of pure joy for you and for HIM!

WOW, what a day and what a blog, what a day for you two/six. If we, as close friends/family, are feeling the pain I can not imagine what the six of you and Nana are feeling.

May God continue to encourage you all in ways he has not yet shown. This just to show that HE has not forgot you, which we all know He has not!

Wow what emotions.

THROUGH HIM ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE

Love you Guys, Robert (Cherilyn, Nicholas and Zachariah)

Friends and Family said...

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! All four of us could not wait to see what happened. We normally read before bed but with all of us at home we had to read early.

Zachariah got his Bible and was ready to look up scripture if needed, what a blessing!
As we read and listened to the Newsboys song I explained to the boys why this song hits right at home. Great, great stuff, thank you and thank God!

Just a side note, as I was working up at our church yesterday I was thinking about you guys and satan told me to just give up and to stop praying for the six of you and just give up, again and again. We are being hit at home, Oklahoma, and yet I/We will NOT give up! We all feel strong about this physically, emotionally and most importantly, SPIRITUALLY! This will end in HIS glory and will forever glorify Him! I DID NOT stop praying and will NOT stop glorifiying Him! This will only make ALL of us stronger in HIM and when we see you six only believe more in His power and grace.

I am high on HIM as I type this. Thank You for typing what you felt on this last blog. You touched all four of us one way or another. You had me in tears as I read this numeruous times and I explained to the boys that those were not tears of sadness but tears of pure joy for you and for HIM!

WOW, what a day and what a blog, what a day for you two/six. If we, as close friends/family, are feeling the pain I can not imagine what the six of you and Nana are feeling.

May God continue to encourage you all in ways he has not yet shown. This just to show that HE has not forgot you, which we all know He has not!

Wow what emotions.

THROUGH HIM ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE

Love you Guys, Robert (Cherilyn, Nicholas and Zachariah)

Jstar said...

And we declare his glory right alongside you, Sister! In Pavlodar, Kazakhstan, in Orem Utah, and in all of his creation.

Angie said...

You make me smile--I'm proud to call you my friend and I'll be proud to go with you back to that crazy place and declare the glory of GOD there at the baby house! You guys, right now, are the people that make me proud that we share the title Christians! Love you! :D

Kari J said...

Hallelujia!

Jessica and Chris said...

When I read your posts my heart races. I physically can't read fast enough. I want to ingest it all and know everything that is happening and all your thoughts. I wake up in the middle of the night and I think of what time it is in Pavlodar and what is happening. I know your insides are ripping apart and yet you still have the strength to continue. This is not without purpose. We love you and can't wait to meet half way between OK and GA to camp with the 6 of you Hokies.
Tons of love,
Jessica

minime0910 said...

Every scripture quote I wanted to use had already been written by your wonderful supporters, so instead I will quote from Annie, a musical about, what else, orphans!
"The sun will come out TOMORROW, so ya gotta hang on till TOMORROW, come what may...TOMORROW TOMORROW, I'll love ya, TOMORROW, it's only A DAY AWAY!" Tomorrow, Lanetta. I'm sure of it. XOXO Erin

Kim said...

All I have to say is "Amen" and where can I buy your book? Just let me know when you are ready to go back to Kaz! It's all going to be fine! Can't wait for tomorrow! Love you!

Dean and Janie said...

Thank you Lanetta and I, too,would like to know when you go back to Kaz with this group.

Friends and Family said...

Wow! Sounds like God is in the process of doing some really great things.. who even knows the extent of everything He has planned. Hoping and praying that all goes well in court tomorrow... and hope to see you guys home again soon. Love you both!...Adrienne

Starr said...

I'm so excited! Ahhh! Seriously envisioning the future family pictures. I know you are as well. Keep on envisioning it girl - it will happen! Proud of you and proud of Phil as well.

Friends and Family said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow you will officially be a family of 6!!!! I'm so happy and excited for you!!!! I'm really glad I can stop crying every day....my eyes hurt!!! Love you guys! Beverly

Friends and Family said...

You and Phil are AWESOME!!! Can't wait for the good news!!!! God Bless.
Lisa Dunbar

Friends and Family said...

I would like to say WOW this is amazing and I'm so happy for you guys! I pray this goes well and you guys get back to Oklahoma to family and friends safe and everybody welcomes the new additions with open arms smile and lots of hugs! I would if I was in Oklahoma! I also would like to say I love reading your blog you are an amazing writer and you are an amazing family! May God keep giving you all His wonderful blessings!

Jessica Longan

Friends and Family said...

L and P- Thanks for sending me your blog info. I have spent some time skimming your story. As you know (because I believe that you have somewhat been following our story as well) we have had a long year in our adoption. I resonate SO MUCH with many of your thoughts, emotions, fears and ultimately knowing that it's all in God's timing and for HIS GLORY!!! We are now on the other side. I tell people we have finally made it over the seemingly impossible BIG mountain but it has not come without a lot of tears. It has been painful. It has been the most emotionally exhausting experience I have ever had. But as we continued to move forward, trusting in Him, seeing his faithfulness time and time again. I started reading a book last night and this paragraph opened the first chapter.

"In between one place and another, we are vulnerable to the discomfort of our transitory state. If the trip is long or taxing, at odd mile markers our restlessness overrides expectation, or even drifts into despair. When trouble comes we may wonder why we ever embarked at all- or simply stop short of our intended destination, insisting (like the Israelites east of Jordan) that the spot we've settled for is adequate enough, thank you. The best of all journeys may be a hard road to a good place; perhaps fully experiencing the hard, unpredictable road helps us to recognize the good place when we arrive."

I read that paragraph, reread it and then read it to my husband with tears in my eyes. He is building our faith. It's not just about getting from point A to point B but instead about what God is doing in the in between time. So let's boast in his provisions!!! Share of his faithfulness. (which you do in your blog!)

I wish I would have been connected with your story earlier! I would have been praying and praying but now I will just praise God.

Ex. 2:24-25 "God HEARD their groaning, and God REMEMBERED His covenant....And God LOOKED upon the children of Isreal, and God ACKNOWLEDGED them."

Our God is a God who sees. He is a God who hears and knows the sufferings of his people. He remembers his promises, cared for us and acts on our behalf. Praying that the rest of the journey goes smoothly. Praying for strength and patience.

Blessings- wendy sterk

Amy, Jeff, LM, & Ashton said...

HI Guys -- i am soo soo praying that the verdict on Jan 21 was good..I am just getting to catching up on the last 2 weeks of your blog and WORRIED there are no posts since Jan 20... i truly pray no news is good news, and that you are finishing up over there and making your way home with the girls..... hold to the dream in your heart and souls...

George and Debbie said...

lenatta and phil we continue to pray for you all

And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name, welcomes me!” Matt 18:5

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