Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Are we even making any progress??

So, we received an update from the agency yesterday.. and well, after review of our dossier they have asked us to change/redo a few things... It's disheartening to say the least... Phil's been out of town and made it back today after an awful drive home (due to the ice storm)... and I didn't tell him till tonight.. he just listened while I read him the e-mail and said... man o man.. Is it just me, or does this WHOLE process feel like a mouse on a wheel running so hard.... only to find out that you have not gone anywhere? Yes, that's exactly how I feel tonight... and I'm exhausted from it!

Most of the things that have to be redone are very minor and I can get them redone quickly and relatively easily... but, it just frustrating.. part of the things are things that are out of our control.... so we don't know how all this will play out... Please join us in prayer that all this mess with our paperwork will work out in God's perfect way!

I was immediately drawn to my newest scripture tonight... "And the Lord answered me: "Write the vision... for still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end - it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay." Habakkuk 2:2-3
I know in moments like tonight... we allow our flesh to override what we know God has shown us... and I know God is using this very journey to mold Phil and I to be more like him, love him more, honor him more, and totally rely on him in ALL things! But, I have to say that sometimes being molded hurts.... and it hurts deep... and sometimes I even wonder why it all has to be so hard... we are trying to serve God with everything within us... we desire our family to be exactly what God has called us to be... why are things so difficult sometimes??? and then I always come back to the answer... God uses these times to makes us stronger, grow us, and mold us to be more like him! and I realize that in these moments I am being selfish.... and that is not God's plan for our life!

11 comments:

Starr said...

Man...reading that makes my insides get all tied up in knots of frustration. I know it's a hundred times worse for you. Hang in there! Someday this part will all be in the distant past, replaced by happy memories of your boy(s)! Love ya.

Jennifer M said...

Oh man, I am so sorry. What frustrating news. Your hamster wheel analogy makes a lot of sense. (Unfortunately.)

Kim said...

Try not to let the updating of documents upset you too much. It's all part of the process. You are closer than you've ever been and it will progress. The scripture in Habbukuk really helped me too during the last of our wait. I know you want to go get your son or sons now but I also know you don't want them until it is the Lord's perfect time. Sooo I'm giving you some advice that was given to me. Just look up and dig your heels in. Don't give up and don't allow the enemy to steal your joy. I know you have had a tough week with sick girls and are worn out. Rest this weekend and be refreshed to get it all done! Love to you!

Butch and Tracy said...

YOua re so right. I know this is a hard road to follow. Yet in the end what a wonderful blessing we will recieve. Can you imagine the opportunity to care for another one of God's precious children. The privilage of growing another child to HIM. WOW.... what an opportuniy. Yes, this is the hardest thing I have ever done. More pain than I have felt in... well a very long time. But it will all be worth it.

Jill (& Bob) said...

Ugh, what frustrating news...hopefully all the new documents are generated quickly and done just as they need to be so you can bring your son(s) home! We're praying for you and for you little boy(s)!

Becki Stone said...

Oh Lanetta. Let me start by saying I can totally relate. I remember thinking- I did the paper *just* like you said!!! It is frustrating, it is stressful, and brutal! You jump through a million hoops to get the dossier done just to walk the tight rope waiting for news. Just know you are not alone, and I have said over and over again that I feel like I take two steps forward, just to take one back. We are all in this together, and it will be so worth it in the end when our little boys are home and we forget all about the brutal process getting there!
I'm here for you- anytime! :) Hang in there!!!

Corinne said...

Yes,it is true that being molded to become like him is so hard! It is hard to understand why we have to go through all this when we already know he is leading us.Hang in there Lanetta and know prayers are continuing to come your way.BTW,love the scriptures!

The Wright's said...

We are praying for FAVOR for you guys ! I am believing that God's hand is on your dossier ! I was telling Cynthia last night how cool it would be if we all were in Kaz at the same time so that our families could meet. Just remember you got a family in Georgia praying over you guys too !

Baby Kaz Moore said...

I can feel your pain. I had to do half of my notaries a second and even third time because of silly things. Argh. But hang in there. You can do it and then it'll be past you!! One day at a time. Take care, Susan

Chris and Tricia said...

One saying that my aunt passed on to me during our wait really helped me get through it. Delay is NOT denial. Repeat that every day and someday you will be praising God next to your boys and saying that delay really isn't denial. The wait is so hard.

Kari J said...

Oh, Lanetta,
AMEN to all that you said. If I have learned anything in this often frustrating process, it is patience. I have been amazed over the last 3 years at the patience I have learned. Hang in there, my prayers and hopes are with you. We will all get there in His perfectly right time.

And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name, welcomes me!” Matt 18:5

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